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It's funny, I looked over at Naomi this morning when I woke up, and got this sudden rush of happiness.

Okay, perhaps 'funny' isn't the right word. In any case, there's something ever so sweet about her when she's sleeping, and some mornings it takes an awful lot of effort to actually get out of bed and come into work.. But anyway, I'm getting sidetracked here..

My point is, sometimes there's this feeling I get, and it's hard to explain. In the mornings it makes me want to go back to bed and wrap my arms around her. During the day, it tends to make me feel ever so tempted to go out and buy a ring for her, and in the evenings it tempts me to give her such a ring.. Needless to say, I quite like this feeling :o)

It's now pretty much a year since we moved in together, in which time we've not spent very long apart.. a bit at Christmas, the odd weekend here and there, but nothing significant. It's funny how fast the time flies, and now I can't really imagine not living with her.. It seems like the most natural thing in the world now, which I'm quite pleased about, given how much I enjoyed living alone in Hove.. I had been slightly worried that after enjoying having my own place so much, sharing with somebody would be a nightmare, but it's been anything but.. :o)

It's funny to think of just how much my life has changed over the past 20 or so months.. For starters, I could almost become a vegetarian, so much has my diet changed.. Lasagna is made with lentils rather than beef, curry is made with chick peas, and pizza can be eaten with peppers and jalapenos, rather than pepperoni (though naturally I prefer the meat options in most cases).. The other week, I ate tuna steak with rice, cauliflower, broccoli and carrots. I didn't eat a single item from that list a year ago. This change has been in part due to the fact that I automatically seek approval from people I respect (i.e. Naomi), and in part due to me generally wanting to be a better person (for the first time, really).

And speaking of being a better person, I find it interesting the way my perspective of, shall we say, 'other girls' has shifted. I used to wonder at what point one stopped being tempted by.. well.. temptation. I mean, I've experienced periods of not being tempted by anyone, but those tended to be towards the beginning of relationships, when you're swept up in the whole thing and don't have time to think of anybody else. I'd always kind of wondered quite how that resistance to temptation survives after the honeymoon period has worn off. These days, it seems so obvious.. You ask yourself the simple question "Would it be worth it?", to which the answer is invariably "No."

I know, it should be obvious.. It didn't used to be though.. It's taken until this point in my life for me to fully work it out, and to understand that given how awesome what I've got is, nothing else could ever be worth it..

I dunno, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm in a really good place, emotionally. We seem to have shared goals and dreams, and they involve us being together for a good long while, until Naomi some day kills me for my life insurance. The fact that I'm not dead yet gives me hope that, at least for the time being, she must feel the same way :o)

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your post...made me really happy. it made me smile! its so nice to see/hear about two people truly in love and from your side..you and naomi certainly sound it!

as a girl..i would tell you to go out and buy that ring :)

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